You must agree with me on this :-). No? You have to! He he… no no. I don’t mean to push you to agree with me. But try to see it from my perspective.
Leaving and being left behind are two reverse things which both are unpleasant. The former represents an action, while the other implies passivity. Leaving somehow means that you are moving forward, you make the choice to ending something then creating a new beginning. Being left is different. Being left means you are not given any choice, you only need to accept. It is definitely bitterer.
Dumped. It is bitter when you love, you adore, and you hope… only to know in the end you are dumped. Some people are so lucky to not having this experience in their life. But thank God, most people have been dumped, at least once. Including me? He he, of course! When I typed “he he” I was factually smiling because now those experiences seems so funny like… in an ironic way.
Death. You know how hard it is to be left by your loved ones, right? Without doubt, death is the cruelest parting in human history. Your loved one left you, forever. How surreal that is! While you ought to stand still, can’t do much but to suppress your pain and to accept the tragedy with your graciousness.
I am not saying that leaving is easy. Not at all. Even to leave something (or someone) has its own obscurity. Especially when you think what you left is precious, or when you know whom you left is hurting. Nonetheless, as long as you see your destination and you are able to envision contentment in the new direction, why not go for it? We live only once and life is so short.
Ah, please don’t frown, my friend. As much as I know how hard to leave, it is easier than being left! Mark my word: e-a-s-i-e-r.
There it is. Being left is my biggest fear after loneliness. Being left will put me at my lowest state of insecurity, will make me feel worthless. Sometimes it makes me start questioning what’s the point of living a life like that. No point. Life is like a stage show, isn’t it? We play roles. We experience ups and downs. We are leaving and… being left behind. Damn.
* The title is taken from R.E.M.’s song: Leaving New York.